New Learning

Its been an amazing month..the journey that I have been on has been one of re-connection. And I do not beleive, now, that any journey can be tougher than when you are trying to reconnect with something you thought you knew quite well before.

The journey was physical and spiritual. And two different ones, just one after the other.Different and yet the same.

One was a journey to my homeland - where I might be living full time after a gap of 14 years. Everything was the same, and yet things were different. And yet, stuff that was physically the same felt alien and stuff that had changed felt familiar. I had changed of course, and what was familiar to me now was different now. Where I expected ease and comfort, I was more of an alien than ever before. There is a term for this in Hindu mythology. Trishanku. It refers to a demon king, who wanted to reach the heavens. And because of politics and apartheid between the gods and the demons, the poor man was condemned to an eternity in mid-space, a third space, created just for him.
Poor Trishanku, never anywhere.

I seem to be complaining, but am not. It was good to be free of preconceived notions, of conventional mores, of immature fears. It was like visiting one's dreams - knowing the lay of the land, and yet having so much to discover. I could create a new reality in half known space. There was opportunity here.

The other journey was spiritual in nature. I learned a new type of meditation, and for the first time realised and experienced so much that I had read about and never 'got it'. It is true what they say - you have to be a 'realised soul' and it cannot be taught or explained. There is only one problem - I'm stuck with this really embarrassing - 'universal love'!